Confession is good for your soul…but not for your reputation
Too often we put a spotlight on the ‘highs’, the victories, the achievements… And we work hard to keep our mistakes, our faults, our failures hidden.
I’m no different. I struggle with the desire to have a good reputation. I want others to like me. But a good friend once told me leaders are meant to grow publicly. As much as I resist that, I know it’s where God grows me the most… when I live with nothing to prove, nothing to lose, nothing to hide.
By His grace, the Lord led us a team, recently, to come humbly before Him to confess our sins to one another. We followed it up with a blog post that I encourage you to read.
“Dear God, I confess that Your grace is all you need. Your power works best in weakness.
So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses,
so that the power of Christ can work through me”
(2 Corinthians 12:9 NLT)
Yet I still belong to you;
You hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
Leading me to a glorious destiny.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth.
My health may fail, and my spirit grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
He is mine forever.
What comforting words these are last Wednesday morning… as I found myself still feeling the tears and pain of Bataraa’s son passing. It was rather strange…but as I pulled into the gas station to put gas, tears welled up in my eyes. I thought about what they might be going thru right now in Mongolia. I feel like writing him, but I don’t know what to say.
I listened to Tim Keller’s podcast on ‘Worship‘, on my way back (from dropping the kids off at school) I was reminded that it’s really in times like these when it reveals our true worship.
Psalm 95 shows how the psalmist chose to ‘give worth’ to God even in spite of his external circumstances. Which made me ask, how do I grow to see (or make) God bigger in my life? Instead of being caught up with all the twists and turns this life offers.
We all worship something. For me, I’ve been worshipping ‘settling down well’. That’s been my (primary) focus, not God. I can justify it all I want…with good reasons for all I’m doing etc. but the fact remains the as I examine my heart, plus look at the way I’ve been orienting my activities, getting adjusted & comfortable has been my god.