Yet I still belong to you;
You hold my right hand.
You guide me with your counsel,
Leading me to a glorious destiny.
Whom have I in heaven but you?
I desire you more than anything on earth.
My health may fail, and my spirit grow weak,
but God remains the strength of my heart;
He is mine forever.
What comforting words these are last Wednesday morning… as I found myself still feeling the tears and pain of Bataraa’s son passing. It was rather strange…but as I pulled into the gas station to put gas, tears welled up in my eyes. I thought about what they might be going thru right now in Mongolia. I feel like writing him, but I don’t know what to say.
I listened to Tim Keller’s podcast on ‘Worship‘, on my way back (from dropping the kids off at school) I was reminded that it’s really in times like these when it reveals our true worship.
Psalm 95 shows how the psalmist chose to ‘give worth’ to God even in spite of his external circumstances. Which made me ask, how do I grow to see (or make) God bigger in my life? Instead of being caught up with all the twists and turns this life offers.
We all worship something. For me, I’ve been worshipping ‘settling down well’. That’s been my (primary) focus, not God. I can justify it all I want…with good reasons for all I’m doing etc. but the fact remains the as I examine my heart, plus look at the way I’ve been orienting my activities, getting adjusted & comfortable has been my god.
3 thoughts on “Who or What have I been worshippping?”
Thanks Simon. I’ve been casually following your “Great Adventure” and at times praying for you.
I do agree with the former part of your post here. Now, on your last part, I wonder if you’re being too hard on yourself 🙂 If God has placed you where you are and part of His call is for you to “settle down well” and you’re doing that to the best of your ability – isn’t that a form of worship also? I mean, as long as God remains at the centre of the “settling down well”.
Of course, only you and God knows the heart 🙂
Hey Danesh, appreciate ur comment n for praying for me. Much appreciated.
I know where u’re coming from. I dun think I’m ‘hard’ on myself per se. It’s more like a conviction fr the Spirit actually… when I realize I’m more anxious (abt settling this n that) vs. being rested in seeing Him supply n provide for my needs. It’s a journey I know, and I need to allow myself room to grow as well 🙂